Monday, December 12, 2011

The White Stripes and ear sex

I really love the white stripes right now. They're music is all raw and gritty, but flows and makes you wanna tap out a beat to go with it. Jack White's voice is smooth and has country-ish feeling and super sexy. I just, I don't know... something about that combination is super hot. Like I feel the music to my very core when I listen to it. Not even the words or anything, which usually touches me in songs, but the music. The cords of the guitar, the drums, they vibrate right through you. It's just lovely, lovely, lovely loveliness. The way it sounds reminds me of sex, but not even the act of having sex, or the feeling, but the fundamental idea of feeling really good through your entire body. Now I'm not saying this music is making me come or anything like that, ew guys no. Just no. But it's like inside of you, but not containable, so your sitting there just moving with it and tapping out a beat to go along (but you always get it wrong) and it just feels right, and good and happy.

Fuck I just love the White Stripes.

Ermmm sorry about this really lame post. I was feeling like writing about it for awhile. Anyway I'ma call this ear sex or like music sex I guess... both of which sound really weird, but I'm not sure what else you would call it. Ideas?

Anyway maybe someone out there knows what I'm on about and can contribute to this idea... Also I'd like to note that just because The White Stripes is my ear sex doesn't mean I think it is gonna be the same for everyone. We all listening to music differently and different sorts of music. Don't feel stupid or sad, whatever, if the White Stripes isn't your ear sex, it doesn't have to be. I'm just saying that I'm not attempting to force my opinion on anyway, or suggest this is just a certain kind of music. It isn't. It will be different for everyone.

That is all, good night!

Friday, December 09, 2011

How I am one big fat stereotype.

So this post is about stereotyping, and how I am one. It'll be a list, because as you all know, I love my lists. So here we go, how Terri is one big fat stereotype. 

1. I'm a student

2. I'm an english major

3. I am going to be a librarian. 

4. I'm a writer (in one form another). 

5. I shop at thrift stores.

6. I am a nerd. 

7. I don't like wearing name brands.

8. I'm a locavore.

9. I collect books.

10. I have a blog. 

11. I own apple products. 

12. I spend hours hanging out in coffee shops.

(Have you figured it out yet?)

13. I am unwilling to spend more than $10 on food. 

14. My major talents include procrastinating. 

15. I like to get drunk and dance, a lot. 

If you don't get this, then I dunno... :(
Your lame! lol 
Have a fun rest-of-semester lovelies. I'm gonna go bury myself in a dark cave somewhere... 

Friday, December 02, 2011

Can't you feel?

It crept up my spine, forming Icicles
And brushed against my skin making mountains with one lone trunk appear everywhere.
My feet were blue, even in the comfort of my socks.

I watch you dash around an empty kitchen, 
pink cheek'd and merry, 
your bareness offends my body.
You glow, bask, revel even
in the kitchen's dark dankness.

For me, there is an incomprehensibleness about you.
Do you not feel? do you not know? 
Can't you see my icicle, my blue feet, my mountains?
Can't you feel the cold?

Thursday, December 01, 2011

Boyfriend requirements; Or why I'm still single (a list)

So this is a list of things I require in a man.
And I'm joking. But I still thought it'd be funny to write, so here ya'll are, my boyfriend requirements; or as as it should be more adeptly titled, why I'm still single.

(in no particular order...)

1. MUST be able to hang clothing on a hanger correctly when trying said clothing on in the Winners fitting room. Double the points if he can hang up men's dress pants correctly.

2. Must also be an anglophile. If you don't know what this is you should probably just move along.

3. Must be able to write in full sentence and not use abbreviations, or slang– when being serious.

4. Must be able to argue.

5. Must drink tea or caffeine (the above point should indicate why)

6. Must understand that I was in love with Johnny Depp, David Tennant, Alan Rickman, Ryan Gosling, Rupert Grint, Neil Gaiman, Byron, Jorge Luis Borges, Brad Pitt, The Doctor, my dad (errr I don't mean anything sexual about some of these men, I just mean they are men that I love more than I will; or could, love you) and probably a whole flack of other men as well. In other words: YOU ARE NOT THE FIRST MAN IN MY LIFE!

7. Must not be a crier. I do not like crying. If you cry you can sleep on the couch (not that I have one so you can sleep on your couch [if you even have a couch; dunno maybe you'll be homeless or live with your parents or a buddhist; I REALLY JUST DON'T KNOW!], or the floor, whatever; you just wont be beside meeee muahahahaha!)

8. Must actually be the Doctor, with a striking resemblance to David Tennant or Matt Smith (preferably Tennant) OR willing to dress up as the Doctor on demand.

9. Must like pickles (this is an actual requirement, I am NOT joking).

10. Must have insomnia, because I do and it'd be awkward to be the only one awake all night (plus really really dull).

11. You must not be afraid of the colour pink. It is in no way going to upset your 'manliness' (but you might get hit on by a lot of well dressed guys).

12. You must shave on a regular basis. I'm sorry making out with a hairy face gives me a rash, which is not very hot and you want your girl to be hot right? Riiiiiiight?

13. Must like fantasy and sci-fi, also must like reading. I read a lot; I'm nerdy; you should be too– get over it.

14. Must also have internet addiction so we can videochat while in the same house because we're to lazy to move to the room the other person is in.

15. Must be taller than me. It's way more fun to kiss you then.

16. Must like to cuddle. I like to cuddle and your a guy so your probably warm, cuddling WILL happen; it'd be better if you enjoyed it.

Some things about me to accept/know

1. Must accept my CRAZY love of pickles. I hold (and truly believe) that any thing (I do mean ANYTHING) will taste better pickled. Anything.

2. Must be able to appreciate and accept my strange fascination with obnoxious, rude, ridiculous guys (i.e. Nathan from Misfits [if you don't know what show that is you should probably just stop reading here and move one]); I don't actually want to date one, they're just really fucking hot.

3. Must understand that I will probably angrily rant a commercials when I'm in a bad mood; I just don't like them! I don't like to know that people are attempting to sell me shit, I take it better when they act all discreet and pretend they are my friend.

4. Must accept my siblings. IF you do not then you are out. They are my babies.

5. Must appreciate my mind over my body.

6. Must accept that I am always right. In EVERY instance, but must also argue with me, then let me win and have lots of crazy angry sex.

7. Must accept my strange fascination with books, and the fact that I buy endless numbers of them for no particular reason, other than to stare at them.

8. Must watch at least a season of Gilmore Girls so that he understands where all my knowledge of
relationships comes from and why I am the way I am.

I am ending this portion of the list here because a) I don't need potential boyfriends knowing EVERYTHING about me in advance and b) it could get really really long and you'd get bored.

Thursday, November 24, 2011

Overdue list

I am definitely overdue for a list! School's been super busy so I haven't got to it yet, but here I am! Ready to list shit and make my life look a little brighter. So some things that made me happy this week:

British television


Jamaica Kincaid



Lazy mornings


Lace up boots

Curry noodle soup


Free soup

Rupert Grint

Shakespeare night


Monday, November 14, 2011


In my ventures through the interwebz I came across the AFI list of 100 great movies. I have, of course, seen this list before, but not recently and I've always wanted to see all the movies on it, just for fun. So I am going to post the list in its entirety on here, crossing out the movies I've already seen. I have seen parts of some of these movies, but never the entire thing or I may have seen them once and not remember; those movies will be indicated with a star. I will try and keep you up to date on my progress, this will probably be christmas break sort of thing. Enjoy!

1. CITIZEN KANE (1941) 

2. THE GODFATHER (1972)*

3. CASABLANCA (1942) 

4. RAGING BULL (1980)





9. VERTIGO (1958)

10. THE WIZARD OF OZ (1939) 

11. CITY LIGHTS (1931)

12. THE SEARCHERS (1956)

13. STAR WARS (1977)

14. PSYCHO (1960) 

15. 2001: A SPACE ODYSSEY (1968) 

16. SUNSET BLVD. (1950) 

17. THE GRADUATE (1967) 

18. THE GENERAL (1927)



21. CHINATOWN (1974)

22. SOME LIKE IT HOT (1959)*





27. HIGH NOON (1952) 

28. ALL ABOUT EVE (1950)







35. ANNIE HALL (1977)*




39. DR. STRANGELOVE (1964) 

40. THE SOUND OF MUSIC (1965) 

41. KING KONG (1933)*




45. SHANE (1953)



48. REAR WINDOW (1954)

49. INTOLERANCE (1916)


51. WEST SIDE STORY (1961) 

52. TAXI DRIVER (1976)

53. THE DEER HUNTER (1978)

54. M*A*S*H (1970)


56. JAWS (1975)

57. ROCKY (1976)

58. THE GOLD RUSH (1925)

59. NASHVILLE (1975)

60. DUCK SOUP (1933)



63. CABARET (1972)

64. NETWORK (1976)




68. UNFORGIVEN (1992)

69. TOOTSIE (1982)







76. FORREST GUMP (1994)


78. MODERN TIMES (1936)

79. THE WILD BUNCH (1969)

80. THE APARTMENT (1960)

81. SPARTACUS (1960)

82. SUNRISE (1927)

83. TITANIC (1997)

84. EASY RIDER (1969)


86. PLATOON (1986)

87. 12 ANGRY MEN (1957) 

88. BRINGING UP BABY (1938) 

89. THE SIXTH SENSE (1999)

90. SWING TIME (1936)

91. SOPHIE'S CHOICE (1982)

92. GOODFELLAS (1990)


94. PULP FICTION (1994)



97. BLADE RUNNER (1982)


99. TOY STORY (1995)

100. BEN-HUR (1959)

Tally so far 23/100

Sunday, November 06, 2011

Getting that christmas spirit back!

Since I've worked in a busy retail store for the past three years christmas has been ruined for me. I wish I could say the magic was still there, I still got excited around the holiday time, bells and bobtails made me grin etc, but this is not the case, I feel a gnawing fear of what will I get for everybody this year? Do I buy something for the grandparents? the cousins? The best friends? I can never tell. So I've decided I need to feel a little more christmas spirit-y-ish and I'm gonna write this weeks list in honour of christmas! I know it's early for a christmas list, but I'd like to get into the christmas spirit early so I can have a better christmas this year. This i'll be one of those no negativity lists. Stuff I like about christmas time: Christmas movies Candy Stockings the food eggnog Christmas morning no school dressing up baking Craft fairs Presents Doctor Who Christmas special! Christmas dinner Christmas parties

Wednesday, November 02, 2011

30 day writing challenge, day 1!

I promised I'd post some of the writing challenge thingies I'm doing so here is the first one, please excuse the roughness of this piece it was mostly written in the middle of the night and not at all edited. It is short because I decided to keep them all under 1000 words which I guess makes the fiction ones flash fictions... Any suggestions on improvements/critiques are welcome!

Day 1 —Select a book at random in the room.  Find a novel or short story, copy down the last sentence and use this line as the first line of your new story.

The new rains will come down soon. I kick my heavy combat boots against the tufts of yellow grass sticking out of the sandy dirt, and I wonder if they feel as dry as they look. I’ve been standing, watching and waiting for something to happen for too long now. I watch the sky, the distant horizon, the land sits static and waiting for the water to give it new life, hope perhaps. I could do with a drink myself, but something a little stronger than water. I turn away from the distance and start heading back towards the rust coloured hills, watching them for movement for any sign of life in this desolate land. I’ve only been here a week, searching, waiting, jumping at every noise, every crackle of the fractured, hardened earth, every scavenger calling and every rattle of the snake’s tail. But I’m stuck, stuck waiting in the alone and empty place. It isn’t that hard of task for me, I’ve done it so many times before I hardly notice the emptiness, the silence, the fear, but it still overwhelms my senses– how alone I am out here. I’ve learned to suppress my emotions so deep I don’t even know where to find them any more. So I walk back each step is heavy and my feet feel hot inside the shoes. My faded blue truck sticks out against the hills, I could see why they choice this colour, no chance of losing this vehicle. The small trailer hitched on the back offers scant protection when your in a desert. I’m getting impatient here, running out of water, food, canned beans are all fine and dandy when your packing them, but when you get out there, where ever it is they’ve assigned you, those beans, they taste disgusting after the first couple of days, then again I guess anything would taste awful after 7 days straight of eating it, although I can't image ever getting sick of apples. Apples are always delicious.

So I wait and I wait and I wait and finally on the seventh day the man comes. I see him in the distance near mid-afternoon, but he doesn’t reach me until it’s almost dusk. He doesn’t speak to me, probably because he can’t. His jaunt is hindered by the presence of a large duffle back across his back, it appears to be heavy because he moves so slowly. When he finally reaches my encampment he doesn’t say a word, just walks up to the pick up truck and drops the duffle bag into the back. He then turns to me and gives me a nod, holds out the delivery slip, which isn’t a slip at all, but a device used for checking blood sugar levels, except this one has been modified to check and match DNA quickly and accurately without the help of an outside computer. I know it, I designed it myself. I stick my finger in the end he holds out for me, and wait to here the machine give a confirmatory beep. Nothing happens. I keep my finger in the socket and wait, but I know the reader should have finished by now and determined whether I was the correct person or not. It had to be malfunctioning, that was the only explanation. I inspect it with my eyes, attempting to see if something is amiss. I can see nothing wrong so I peel my eyes away from it only to look straight into the barrel of a gun, the old man winks clumsily at me and rolls his chapped lips together in anticipation of the kill.

Tense situations usually lead to irrational actions, but I’m lucky I’ve trained for this exact scenario my entire life. Before the old man can even begun to move his finger I lift my leg in a roundhouse kick and knock the gun to the ground causing a muffled clattering sound. It goes off into the desert. The old man jumps, his face pale, he knows he hasn't got a chance of killing me now. Before he can even scream I’ve got him pinned to the ground. I can feel his hot little body starting to gasp for breath under my weight. He struggles against my height, as I sit on top of him, but I don't budge. I can feel his lungs heaving and I know I don’t have a long time till he’s gone. I want to ask who sent him, why he thought he could kill me, if it was all a trap or a test? But I already know he can't sleep, his silent screams tell me all I will ever know. He stops struggling to breathe and goes limp, his body hot under mine. I can leave now, go to my next destination, kill my next assassin. I leave one last thing behind me, the take the large black bag out of the back of my pick-up and toss it next to the old man, I don't care what's in it, I can guess. I get in the truck and gun the engine outta there, when I'm about a mile away I look back to see the barren land exploding behind me.

Tuesday, October 25, 2011

Writing, NaNoWriMo and other 30 day challenges

I love the concept of Nation Novel Writing Month. It is not about writing something good or even readable, but it is about getting in the habit of writing everyday and being creative, two things I love to do. I have participated for the last two years and every year I get really into for the first little while, I'm able to keep up pretty well and come up with interesting plot twists and great characters. But, I have not finished. I always lose out around 30,000+ mark, this year I'd like to finish. I already have a vague outline of what I'd like to do and I'm gonna be working on it with my bestfriend so there is really no reason why we shouldn't finish, although last year we did it together and didn't finish, but that is besides the point.The truth is, the end of NaNoWriMo happens right around when exams are starting, and since I'd rather not fail any of my classes novel writing sorta takes a back seat, no matter how much I'd like to finish it. Still, I feel that the experience of writing that many words is good for anyone, it is impressive to see how far your imagination will go and what you can come up with to keep your plot going (character killing usually adds a few thousand words). Hardcore Wrimo's are already setting up plot lines and mapping out characters, but I'm going to sit back and relax until the craziness begins. I also think I'm gonna be a fool and work on a 30 day writing challenge, just cause it sounds like fun. I may post some stuff if I deem it worthy of sharing with you'll. 30 Day Writing challenge

Day 1 —Select a book at random in the room. Find a novel or short story, copy down the last sentence and use this line as the first line of your new story.

Day 2 —Tell about a character who lost something important to him/her.

Day 3 —Write about the worst time you’ve ever put your foot in your mouth.

Day 4 —Write a story/excerpt to include the line, “Sorry, we can’t insure you for a journey like that.”

Day 5 —Pick a letter of the alphabet. Now imagine two aisles of your local supermarket. List everything found in those two aisles that begin with that letter of the alphabet.

Day 6 —Write about a person who would buy all of those items in Day 5.

Day 7 —What sets you apart from the crowd?

Day 8 —Tell your life story from someone else’s point of view.

Day 9 —What was your favorite childhood toy?

Day 10 —What do you want to be remembered for?

Day 12 —What is your favorite day of the week?

Day 13 —Write about a random picture you would find in an envelope of finished prints at Costco.

Day 14 —Elvis still gets 100 Valentines each year. Tell about one of the people who sent one.

Day 15 — Create a character who is falsely accused of a crime.

Day 16 —If we assume ghosts are real, what type of ghost would you like to see?

Day 17 — Write a short scenario set in the kitchen of a fast-food restaurant.

Day 18 —Take a reader behind the wheel with the worst driver you’ve ever known.

Day 19 —Write a list of 25 (or just 5!) things you want to do in your life.

Day 20 —If you could go on only one more vacation in your lifetime, where would you go and why?

Day 21 —Find a job ad in the paper. Write about your life if you had that job.

Day 22 —You wake up with a key gripped tightly in your hand. How did you get this key? What does it lock or unlock?

Day 23 —Pretend you’re a cartoon character. What type of a character would you be? What would a day in your life be like?

Day 24 —Write about the longest amount of time you’ve ever gone without sleeping.

Day 25 ––Write about from an animals perspective.

Day 26 —Write about your worst habit.

Day 27 —Make up a near-death experience (unless you have a real one).

Day 28 —You read about yourself in your brother/sister, girlfriend/boyfriend’s diary. What did you read?

Day 29 —You are at a cemetery reading gravestones. Write about one of the people you find.

Day 30 —Write a short entry that ends with the line, “The silver dust of moonlight settled coldly on the night.”

Tuesday, October 18, 2011


I had super stressful week last week, but didn't think to list it up! Dunno what's wrong with me there. Anyway this week is starting out with a lot of awesomeness and awfulness. So I definitely need a list.

Lucky Bar


Nicely dressed men

Game of Thrones


iOS 5





Red pens


Lit theory class

Mini pumpkins

Sunday, October 02, 2011

Why I hate Profs with slides

You've all read my lists so you know I try to avoid negative posts, but this is something which really irks me. Professors who you massively long, un-posted slides. If you know what I'm talking about and agree then comment below, if you disagree even better, we'll start a discussion!

My sociology of deviance and crime professor loves slides. His slides portray a few of the the worst mistakes profs can make when they choose to use a slide over talking or using a chalk board. My prof's crimes are using cartoons, video clips, excessively wordy points, and random unrelated 'cute' or 'funny' pictures. Of course we've all had profs who are guilty of the crime of slides, but this one manages to do everything wrong he possible can.

Slides can be a great aid in the class room, used correctly. They should be used to illustrate points and show diagrams. Video clips are definitely helpful when they reinforce the point or issue a professor wants to make. On the other hand slides the misuse and abuse of slides limits there power. The slides turn into a distraction for the student instead of an aid in helping them learn. They tend to have too many pictures and not enough info. We do not want to see pictures of a cute cat or comics every other slide, fine, maybe it helps us remember them better because it is enjoyable, but I'd rather not be distracted from the important point the professor is making about labelling theory, thank you very much. Some professors have to much info and not enough points, also putting giant quotes in your slides is not helpful for the student. We will try to write EVERYTHING down (and I mean EVERYTHING!) so if you put everything up there then we are not going to listen to a word you say. Videos are also another issue, they are great in slides, but when you decide to throw in a random video that has little or no meaning to the rest of the course it becomes a distraction. Random movie clips are fine, but not useful. I am paying a lot of money to come and learn from you, I do not want to see videos of ninjas or dead people.

When used correctly slides are super useful. They should short, with just a few points about the topic on each one. They should contain difficult to spell words and terms important to the course. They should contain diagrams and short video clips critical to the understand of the current topic. Often profs choose not to post slides online, because they believe that it will cut down on class attendance. If the slides are down properly they will still have people attending classes. The students who don't want to show up will probably not show up regardless of the slides or not and if the slides are done correctly they will still need to show up for classes. The worst thing about slides is how distracting they are! I cannot keep up with what the professor is saying AND write down his/her massive slide at the same time. Profs also forget to put important bits on slides, and they will instead talk about them, but you still have this long slide to write down so you miss their important point and blah it all goes to hell!

Please professors, use slides CAREFULLY and makes sure they are not a distraction to your class. If you are having students ask you to go back so they can finish copying down the definition to a complex term THEN YOU ARE DOING IT WRONG! The student should be asking you to explain the term again, not mindlessly scribbling without their brain interpreting what you say. Anyway my point is: please use slides carefully! Do not make them the focus of your class they aren't, you are.

Wednesday, September 28, 2011

Marty the Bee

Marty the bee was a good little fellow,
Such a nice shade of yellow.

Marty the bee interrupted our lunch date
leading to his ill fate.

Marty the bee got trapped in a dingy clear case,
With some delicious fruit so he didn't lose face.

Marty the bee was observed by a budding scientist
And later glorified in a list.

Marty the bee was set free,
To explore and the world he did see.

Marty the bee was never a bee at all,
He was a wasp who nearly met his downfall.

Saturday, September 24, 2011

List time

I had a really long, sorta crappy, dull week so I need to do list! Plus it's been to long...

New friends

New Girl

The Doctor

German theorists


Home cooking





Richard III

Dill Pickle Soup

Glee night

Cute new boys

Heart of Darkness



Helpful professors



Good morning messages

Saturday, September 17, 2011

One Day: a review

My friend and I spent most of this film laughing, but I still couldn't tell you if it was a comedy or not. The basic premise of the film is a nice idea, more than a good plot. The film takes place over July 15th, of the two main characters from 1988 to 2011. It gives brief snapshots of the characters lives and builds them slowly, compared with most films in the genre. It was a smart film too, because it knew exactly what it is: a generic romantic comedy, yet instead of attempting to something new or different with the plot, it kept its standard story, basically it was predictable. Despite this, the film was super funny, it kept me laughing all the way through, partly because it was predictable, but mostly because of how the characters handled that predictability. They were surprising. You watched Emma (Anne Hathaway) and Dexter (Jim Sturgess) banter playfully one second, then yelling at each other in the next scene.

It was a little fast-paced in terms of plot development, but the slow character development balanced this out. Since Emma and Dexter are really the only characters you see throughout the whole film which almost show cases their relationship before character development. Most of the other characters don't really get a chance to develop properly because of this pinhole effect of the plot. I love movies that play with time and place in interesting ways so this film really appealed to me, but as I watched it, i couldn't help but wonder what was going on in between the July 15th's.... Although it would have been less realistic, it would have been nice to get more of a summary of that time from the characters themselves, just so we knew where they stood.

The film also surprised me because it flowed surprisingly well. There were a couple of jumps where you questioned the movement of time, but the scenes would quickly explain themselves to even things out. The characters were also smart and funny, I didn't find them boring at all, even though they were acting out such a generic story. There were a few moments which surprised me and lots of funny moments, I this is wrong and I should have come up with an answer for you, but I haven't. I still couldn't tell if you the humour in this movie was intentional or not. I think it must have been just because the rest of the film was so carefully crafted, yet somehow strange and expected, at the same time. It did have a artificial feel too it, but then I think the director may have intended it that way, they didn't want you to forget it wasn't real. The ending was probably one of my least favourite parts, because it was just so cheesy and cliché. You think I would have expected this after the rest of the movie, but I was surprised and felt like it should of had something a little better. There were some good lines throughout it though, such as Emma saying "I'm not lonely, I'm alone" and when Ian (Emma's ex) goes to visit Dexter he (at the end of the movie) tells him that Emma made him decent and she made her happy.

In all seriousness if you go see this film and have the wrong perspective or expect it to be a boring romantic comedy, it probably will be. If you go see it not knowing what to expect (like I did) or expecting it to be amusing it will probably be much better. Don't take this film to seriously and it will be more enjoyable.

Monday, September 12, 2011

Theory and why I like it.

So I promised this post about why I like theory... or theories in general I suppose. First I need to start with a couple of things about how I view the world etc (sorry this is going to be a very internalized, possibly confusing and definitely narcissistic post, sorry in advance). I know everything is connected, this is super obvious. I also believe that people and ideas are created through experience (as well as some biological make-up in the case of people). I suppose that would be phenomenology (correct me if I'm wrong) and I believe that while we create our own world and how we act, what we do and how we experience things we also are created by the world. It is a two way street, much like respect. My understanding of the clone will represent what I mean (I think). You can clone a person and raise them to be the person they are the clone of, but the clone will never ever be the exact same person unless every minute detail (and I mean every goddamn detail people, nothing left out, not even a nose scratch or a hair raise) is identical. If one thing is not identical, even in a small way, that alters the enter personality of the individual and they cannot be the same person ever. That is how ingrained into experience and life we are.

So where does theory come in? Well I see life as a giant complex puzzle, one without an answer, but it must be organized and understood somehow. Theories about life, the universe, love, happiness are abundant, but often wrong. This is because they are theories, they aren't meant to be right or wrong even and despite our best efforts to define a black and white universe it wont ever happen simply because there are too many variables in human behaviour, but mostly because humans cannot read minds, even if they we could, what good do you think that would do us? I can tell you right now, my mind is super interesting to me and super confusing and complex to me. How would it even begin to make sense to anyone else? Thoughts are such a vague, enormous concept it is impossible to pin them down, we've tried. I like to make a super abstract metaphor with the universe and the human mind. They are the same thing (in concept, or theory I suppose) neither can be limited or comprehend. The mind is limitless in what it can imagine as the universe is limitless in possibilities because it contains the mind. Yet, both the human mind and the universe are incomprehensible to the human mind. Humans cannot know their own potential because we cannot know what others are thinking and because of this we cannot know the potential of the universe. This makes them the same thing.

Now to theory. I like it because it's like a giant confusing puzzle with an answer, or answer of sorts. You can apply any sort of theory to any sort of question. I love questions and I love puzzles. I love solving puzzles (this is not to say I'm particularly good at them). Theory can give both answers to puzzles and questions, but it also can raise questions and create more puzzles. The other thing about theory is that it is a giant argument (or debate would be the better word here, but I like how argument sounds better). It is basically one theorist responding to a previous theorist, while at the same time attempting to cover their own ass in anticipation of the next theorist. I love to argue. Don't believe me? Try it sometime. I am stubborn and determined, I like a challenge and I wont stop unless I believe I am proved wrong. This is why theory appeals to me so much. It's a giant argument about questions and puzzles and about experience, but as my favourite prof said, it's about getting at the truth, which is something I value highly, probably too highly.

So this is an extremely lengthy explanation most of which isn't really related to theory, besides illustrating some of my own ideas... I warned you it would be narcissistic. I hope that it sheds some light on me though, and is sorta fun? I dunno. I shouldn't write things that are so confusing here I guess, but I couldn't resist. I have all these ideas all the time and I never put them out there in cyber space...I didn't even start on my theory of creativity and creation (not to be confused with creationism, but just the general creation of things, or more accurately the process of creativity and creation, basically in relation to art and like forms). See I tangent to much when I do this. I think maybe I should have been a philosophy major, but that is just an idea, and much to abstract for meeeee. Hope someone enjoys some of this, I'd really love to here thoughts, if you don't have a google account and we're friends YOU KNOW WHERE TO FIND ME! That is all everyone! Goodnight!

Sunday, September 11, 2011

Vancouver trip!

I went to Vancouver with my best friend this weekend and it was super awesome and fun! We went to Taylor Swift, which was girly and I spent the entire time drunk so it was much more enjoyable than if I'd been sober, as she is not my favourite singer on the planet. We also did a lot of shopping and some how I still managed not to buy what I actually need: shoes and a purse. We also visited with our friend Ariana. We went out for crepes which were really yummy, although I would have hoped for some more fillings in them at the price they were. We also got a lot of shopping in (oh wait...I already mentioned that didn't I?) I was super excited to visit Urban Outfitters (one of my favourite websites to browse) and it was as awesome (and expensive) as imagined. I've decided to add pics of some things I bought. I've never really done a haul post before, but I thought I'd give it a shot. So here are my items! Enjoy!
Everything together
Red Skirt (colour is super off, sorry)
Close up of the pocket (my favourite detail!)
Work pants
The wide band at the top –love.
Light weight sweater dress sorta thing...
The wide band at the bottom, gives it a sweat shirt sorta feel
Make-up bag? Or pencil case... not sure, I got it for my sunnies so they'd stop getting all scratched up
One last pic for ya'll TAYLOR SWIFT!
Errr well you can't really see her cause she's like super far away n'shit, but still! She's there on that lighted area some where.... somewhere out there... falling back to meeeeeee...
Anyway that's all I've got for you all right now.... I was sorta playing with a post about Theory (no not the clothing brand) but I don't know if it's worth posting I started writing it in the middle of the night, drunk...although I do have some of my best ideas then...errr maybe not. Anyway I gotta shit load of homework I'm supposed to be getting through and have barely made a dent in so good night for now!

Wednesday, September 07, 2011


So here is a sad fact (or cool one, depending how you look at it) I have already begun choosing halloween costumes. I suppose because my store already has costumes in, I'm feeling pressured to think of something! (I really didn't need to justify that, did I?). This year I've decided to pick something I like, not something that's sexy or popular. This is my list so far: Ramona Flowers Death Hello Kitty Pickle Rory Gilmore Gypsy This is just a small list of things that I could beeee. Anyway besides being ridiculously excited for halloween I'm also super excited for school! Tomorrow! Um I sound lame. I like school though and this year, because I'll have no social life, I'ma try to write blog posts more often, hopefully cause I know ya'll reading this want to know what's going on with meeeeee! And what is going on? Well besides picking out halloween costumes, I've been planning my back to school outfit, watching a lot of Doctor Who, but sadly, mostly just working. :( I also got to spend some time with family and made some really awesome new friends this summer, love making new friends. I can't wait to have a bunch more new friends at school this semester (god that sounds super dorky, but then I am kinda super dorky....). I'm also really looking forwards to going to Vancouver this weekend with my best friend, shopping and Taylor Swift, what could be more girly? Maybe cupcakes and ruffles, I suppose. Anywho I'm super tired and excited so I really need to head off to dream land and whatnot. Goodnight lovelies! <3

Monday, July 25, 2011

Austra-a brief review

I went and saw Austra last Wednesday at Lucky Bar with my sister, this sort of marks a milestone for us both. It was my fist live show in a bar and her first time in a bar! I guess that's a little lame, but we're late bloomers that way.

Anyway a little background on the band. It was started by
Katie Stelmanis
who's from Toronto (Whoot Canadian!) her voice is awesome and eery sounding, mostly due to her training to be an Opera singer. She used to perform on her own, but started Austra, recently, I believe. I read about her in the May or July issue of Nylon magazine. I was mislead into listening to them because the magazine said they were like a female version of Nine Inch Nails, they definitely are not, but I decided I loved them anyway so of course I HAD TO attend the show.

I went to Lucky one Monday with a friend and saw the poster and got super excited so I wrote down the time and date there and then. I roped my sister into coming because I figured she would like the band and nobody else I know is really into indie music.

Anyway Austra turned out to be completely AMAZING! Her voice is even more awesome live! She also moved really well with her music, her clothing choice was a tad questionable, but it worked with her style of music and her hair was perfect. The other two back up singers were really good as well, the one smallish brunette girl had an amazing voice, but wasn't a very good dancer and the other girl didn't really sing but matched Katie's dancing style a lot better.

The other two performers were pretty decent as well. I wasn't crazy about Techromance, but they weren't bad, just a little boring. Rich Aucoin was a lot of fun, he got right in with the crowd and danced around and got us to sing along. He also had really cool videos to go with his performance. He really got the energy up before Austra came out, so everyone was all ready to go. Also he had one of those colourful parachute things, made my life, not joking. I never got to use one as a child.

Overall I thought Austra was awesome live, they did have one technical difficulty near the beginning, but it only result in them playing one of their best songs twice, so I'm not complaining. I would definitely go see them live again, next time they come to Victoria I'll be getting my tickets right away!

Sunday, July 03, 2011

What I've been doing.

I feel like I've been neglecting this blog again. I also miss writing since I haven't been doing a good job of actually working on anything. I have one story which is near completion, but I keep finding things wrong with it or rereading it and changing things! It's taking sooooo long! I just want it to be perfect so it'll get publish somewhere!

Hmmm so what else have I been up too? Hanging out with friends a lot, way way to much facebook, work (as usual), listening to a lot of music lately and watching Doctor Who (which is an undertaking in it's self, but I'm only watching the newer episodes). I've also been spending a healthy amount of time at the beach, at least once a week! :D and downtown more than once a week, which makes me want to move there even more.

I've been online dating again, it's just to easy, but some advice, don't go liking boys who aren't even in the same country as you or that are just to old! It's sorta depressing.

Still slugging my way through Jane Eyre, I've decide that I totally love her character. As well as Mr. Rochester, cause he's sort of a mystery. I also like how they build and give Jane's character depth by using Mr. Rochester, seriously amazing. The writing style is also beautiful, it draws you right in and the description of the scenery are minimal, without being dull or lacking. They give just enough to build your own idea which is perfect.

My fam's summer house is now open so I'm super stoked to go out there, probs will be able to finish with Miss Eyre. It's such an amazing place, we have our own beach and large yard (about 2 acres) and a decent sized old house, which I completely adore. All my cousins will also be out there so I'm super stoked to see and catch up with them all! I'm sorta jealous my little sister gets to baby sit two of my younger cousins for the ENTIRE summer! They are two of the cutest and most fun kids ever! I cannot wait to see them!!!

I got an article published, HERE which I am super happy about and hopefully I'll get them to publish some more. I'm thinking I'll do some sort of comedy piece or something more fun, but I dunno yet.

Another thing, that summer reading list and the list of stuff I want to do this summer? Not really happening, like at all, but I'm sure I'll get some of it down. Not all, but some. Anyway that is about all I've got say for now. I PROMISE to come out with something more interesting soon! Maybe some pictures or a poem?

Friday, June 24, 2011

Jane Eyre

So I'm reading Jane Eyre for the first time. I feel like this is a long overdue read because I've seen almost every movie adaption of the book and love the story. I'm finding Jane a lot more interesting and strange than in the movies, as well as boring. Her character is so disconnected from its self I don't know what to make of her! She talks about herself like she's another person although she is narrating the story. I guess it is showing an example of human change which can be interesting, but since I haven't finished the book (not even close to it) I can't tell you how she changes.

One particular character trait I find very appealing in Jane is her restlessness and her romantic notions. This is very apparent when she meets Mr. Rochester for the first time. She has all these exciting ideas running through her head about who is approaching her on the trail, imagining that is a mythic creature. I Also found it very interesting that Mr. Rochester's character picks up on this when he 'officially' meets Jane. The entire scene of them meeting is lacking in emotion, besides interesting in Mr. Rochester simply because he is the first man she has seen in ages, Jane expresses little emotion. Mr. Rochester is simply gruff and rude. Jane and Mr. Rochester's character's seem to be mirrors or doubles of each other. Both expressing curiosity in each other, but without being able to comprehend each other. This incomprehension could reflect the separate social worlds of men and women of the Victorian era. The women being the 'angel of the house' and Mr. Rochester being a man of the world. This is reflected very well in the two character's role through this portion of the novel. Jane, being a governess is automatically his subordinate, but when he asks her to talk with him on equal terms with him he is really asking her to talk with him on terms of them being equal man and woman, not equal individuals. He says that' he can order her because he has more experience, is older and has travelled more. Jane points out that that shouldn't be the reason he orders her around.

Jane's character also has a very feminist edge, which I like because it is unusual for novels of that period, but maybe having a female author gives it this. She talks about how education should be equal for men and women and how women get bored with the small world men place them in, she also points out that men would get bored in that place as well. Jane also constantly holds her place in the household and acts with little emotion which makes her character seem almost flat in some instance. This is very unusual for the main character of a novel.

I think I love her, but I still haven't come to a conclusive decision, I'd like to see a little more emotion from her. Hopefully when she falls in love she'll be more interesting.

Anyway I'll write another post on my feelings on this chica cause I need to figure them out!

Tuesday, June 14, 2011

A sad story (or a happy one, depending on your point of view)

I've ever been very good with boys. I suck at talking to them, usually just the cute or appropriately aged ones. I tend to act stupid, silly, boring or shy. It sucks. I've recently been challenging myself to over come this because I realize how silly and insecure it is, but it is a challenge. Last night I had one of those challenges thrown at me. Albeit a small one, but still a challenge. My best friend and I went out to a bar to go dancing (Monday is a popular dancing night in Victoria) we waited in line for ever and just wanted to get in there to drink and dance! Finally we made it inside got some booze and started dancing. I found a cute, normal looking guy dance with relatively quickly. Unfortunately he wanted to do more than just dance. After dancing for a bit, he offered to buy me a drink, since I couldn't see my friend and had no excuse not to let him, we went to the bar. I knew at this point he was just trying to get me to go home with him, but I wasn't going to turn down a free drink so I had a shot and something with jager in it. I sat with him and his friends for a short time, until they said they were gonna go. This was good because I wanted to get rid of the guy at this point. I gave him a fake number (sends the message pretty well) and went back to dance more. I danced for a short time before I spied a guy that works at another club who I've always been attracted too. I'd seen him out dancing a couple of other times, but never had an opportunity to actually dance with him. I told my friend I wanted to dance with him. He disappeared a couple of times, but finally we were dancing near him! I felt shy and nervous because I wanted to dance with him so much, but I didn't think he would even notice me. He danced with another girl for a bit, but she quickly disappeared. My friend had been attempting to help me out by making eyes at the guy so he would come over. He did, but unfortunately thought she wanted to dance with him not me! Another guy came up and started to dancing with me. He was very grabby and just wanted to grind whereas I like to actually dance and move around. I was just about to bail because I was sick of watching my friend with the guy I wanted AND having to dance with a shitty dancer when my friend grabbed me and asked where I was going. Apparently she told the guy she was dancing with that I had wanted to dance with him not her. We danced until close to the end of the night, and I was sooooo happy we did because he is and was an amazing dancer! Knew his moves, actually danced, not just grinded or grabbed, it was so nice and refreshing. I think he was still more interested in my friend, but I kind of didn't care it's just nice to spend some time with someone your insanely attracted to, even though nothing comes of it.

And that's my story for the day. The reason I called it a sad story was because I felt like the dance was a pity dance that my friend got for me, not one based on this boy actually being attracted to me, but I could never say for sure cause I didn't and would never ask.

Saturday, June 11, 2011

Feather earrings

I made feathers into earrings because I thought they would be like wings and come alive to fly me away. 
Then I realized that feathers unattached to their bird aren’t alive and I wasn’t going any where… at least I have a pretty pair of earrings. 

Friday, June 10, 2011

Why I like Punk music.

I love punk music. The entire genre. If you asked me any time before last night I probably couldn't tell you why, but I was thinking about it during a bout of insomnia and I realized why I love it so much. The idea (whether spoken or unspoken, agreed or not) behind punk is to be anti-establishment. To be against authority and to be radical. I am not any of these things. This sounds confusing, but I'll explain the appeal for me. It draws the listeners attention to something that might be against their ideals or beliefs, but it also creates debate and interest in the subject. Punk songs tend to focus on chaotic situations and sometimes destructions, they also point out things in society that we take for granted, but could be considered completely ridiculous. I revel in the ridiculous so this was what first drew me to the genre. The music it's self is raw and chaotic which also appeals to me. It isn't about being polished or pretty, it's about the message and it's about jumping around and acting crazy.

Some punk music today leans a lot more towards pop, such as Green Day, but they still manage to capture the essence of the genre. Green Day wrote American Idiot in one night after loosing there other album. I think this is pretty awesome, maybe untrue, but the idea still captures what punk is about. It's just about music and a message, not about being perfect or beautiful. Music doesn't always have to be pretty, this is a very current idea, especially with the over use of auto tuning. I think that music needs to be raw. I'm not saying i'm gonna start rejecting top 40's or auto tuned songs, there are some great ones out there that I love, but I do support music that is just music and I feel like punk is about being music with no bullshit. It's about throwing preconceived ideas about society back into the listeners face to make them realize that there are alternatives. Yeah, it can be in-your-face, angry and messy, but some times that is the best way to stand out and make people listen.

Anyway that is just a little about my favourite genre of music, what are some of yours? 

Cool stuff to do in Victoria in the Summer Part I: traditional summer activities.

I believe I promised this list of cool things to do in Victoria and since it's summer I'ma add that in there. This is just some things that I really enjoy doing. I think I'll make it numbered for fun, but don't take the numbers as any sort of rating system because they aren't.

1. Beaching/sun bathting/swimming etc. There are some amazing place to spend your beach days at in Victoria so I'ma make a mini sublist here of my favourites!

A) Fossil or Muir Creek Beach. This is a popular one with Sookies like me! Mostly because it is waaaay out on West Coast road. Since I live out there it's not to bad for me, but somebody in town probably isn't gonna visit it very often. It's a great beach because it's super long so you can easily find a location without anyone else around, but you can see all the down the beach so you can see people coming. It's not so great for swimming because the water is really cold and rough, but it's great for sunbathing and it does have some awesome tidal pools at low tides you can wade in. This is the beach my family always went to when I was a kid because it was close by and it wasn't as busy as the more popular beaches. 

B) Thetis Lake. This is a super popular swimming/beaching location. It's great if you wanna go out to be seen and see. I like to check out the cute boys :P. It some times does get swimmers itch or whatever, so that's not cool, but I've honestly always enjoyed by experience there. 

C) Willows Beach. This is right in Victoria, unlike the previous three beaches. It's in Oak Bay which is sometimes considered a ritzier neighbourhood. This beach contains a lot of sand and cute boys. It always is decent for swimming since the dropoff isn't very steep. Very popular beach for the locals. I have a feeling I'll be spending a lot of time there this summer because my bestfriends all live down town. 

D) Witty's Lagoon. This beach has a nude beach section. Enough said. I know a lot of people don't really like that sort of thing, but I sorta enjoy sunbathing topless sometimes so it's nice to have a nude beach. You just have to be okay with old men ogling you and seeing them nude. Not so pretty. This beach is also great for swimming and has a lot of sand. I really like it because it's in Metchison so it's outside Sooke, but not quite Langford, i.e. it's busier than Sooke Beaches, but not as busy as Thetis. It is also another large beach, although not as large as Muir Creek. And if your worried about taking the kids there because of the whole nudist thing, don't sweat it that section is around a corner and down the beach, Witty's Lagoon is very popular with school trips and parents. 

E) The Sooke Potholes. This is basically a Sooke Staple because you can't really go swimming in the ocean around Sooke (too cold/wind/dropped off) people had to find alternatives and this is one. The other being Kemp Lake, which is a little to gross to swim in and since I drink the water from that lake I don't wanna swim in it as much. Anyway the potholes are very popular in the summer, but the good thing about them is you can always move to a less popular pothole! You can also take a nice little bike trip up to Leach Town and swim there. It's great if you wanna be around people or want privacy, although I wouldn't recommend going nude here, you never know who's watching! 

2. Dancing. Now I know this isn't for everyone and some people might want to call me a barstar or barwhore, but I honestly just like to dance, drink and be surrounded by cute boys, is there something so wrong with that? I don't think so! Anyway there are some decent clubs in victoria my friends and I frequent. My favourite is Touch because they have like three rooms and the staff is a lot friendlier than at other bars (the bouncers know me!). 9one9 is the most popular and they have a lot of neat shows there which I never seem to have money to go too :(. If your looking for live music then Lucky Bar is definitely good for that, I usually just go to 90's night (90210 night, every monday!) because it's fun to hear the 90's tunes and the dancing is good, although it's usually packed which sucks. If your looking for a bit of an older crowd Upstairs is good for that, it's really spiffy looking inside, lots of wood. Boutique is better if your looking for a younger crowd, Thursday's are the night for that, because it's Ladies night and cheap drinks (i.e. no cover for girls!).

3. Hiking. I really like to hike. The hikes I tend to do are a bit more advanced, you could say (bush wacking anyone?) but there are some awesome hikes in and around Victoria. Mostly in my neighbourhood actually... East Sooke Park has some great ones, which I've done a few times. It's a good place to start because there is something for everyone. There are easier and more challenging hikes, shorter and longer too. If your looking for a more easy hike (walk) there is always the Galloping Goose Trail which is kinda dull in my opinion, but can be a good bike ride. 

Thursday, June 09, 2011

List needed.


Iced coffee/ice capps


book shopping

people watching dt



Blond hair


Sausage rolls


Getting lost in the bush

Making jewelry



Long conversations

Buying books because they are related to music you like!

Monday, June 06, 2011

Epic Hike

Today I went hiking with my mom and aunt. It was intense and awesome because it ended up being this long bush wacking session. Basically we got the top of this hill on one trail and couldn't figure out how to get down. We had already walked to the other end of the ridge so we didn't want to go back to find the trail we had come up on. We ended up clambering down the back of the ridge using deer trails which was pretty interesting. By the time we got to the bottom we had no clue where we were, but by using maps and our GPS's we figured out there was a trail near by.

We started walking south-ish thinking that we would hit the trail soon. We didn't and we some how ended up beside a swamp with the trail we needed on the other side! First we attempted to walk down the swamp to find the end and get to the trail. We quickly realized that it was gonna be to tough because the underbrush was so thick and we were in a valley so the only other place to go was up, also the swamp was just not ending! We ended up turning around and going back along the difficult deer trail we had just came down. It was intense, we weren't sure if we were going the right way or if the trail was even on the other side of the swamp. It would have been completely impossible to go back up the hill we had come down because it was already the middle of the afternoon and it was a steep climb back up.

This is when things became confusing and annoying. It wasn't as if we thought we wouldn't get out, my aunt and mom are both very experienced hikers, especially in Sooke, but we were all getting tired, running out of food and water and just wanting to be out of the woods! Finally we had to go to the other end of the swamp and found the trail we were looking for immediately. There was a small emotional moment for us, which resulted in a fight (the norm for my family). Anyway we eventually made it out alive.

We literally zoomed down the trail because it felt like really easy walking compared with all the intense bush wacking we'd been doing. By the time we got to the road we were all exhausted and I wasn't sure whether I'd make it back to the car since the walk back was along the highway for 2k and basically sucks because everyone just whips past you and your watching cars drive by while you have to walk. It sucked. I can safely say that was the only part of the hike I didn't like. Everything else was pretty amazing and awesome. Could write about the rest, but it was pretty much your generic hike and I don't have pictures so it makes it a little boring if you don't know what I'm going on about. I took my camera to take pics,  but then realized I forgot to empty it first!

Anyway that is the epic hike I had. It made my day and now I'm sitting here goofing around on the computer and drinking my chocolate porter (so yummy), basically another awesome day, if only my team hadn't lost 8-1 to Boston in the playoff's it would have been perfect! :(

Wednesday, June 01, 2011

What I've been up to.

Dancing and drinking.

Making daisy chains in the park while dancing and drinking. 


Stalking the coffee boy.

Reading Interesting Times (Terry Pratchett) and Jane Eyre. 

Beaching (i.e. laying on the beach with a book in my bikini, I consider this the most productive thing I've done so far). 

Getting boys numbers who never call, or only call once and never again. 

Not sleeping. 

Shopping (thrifiting)
Buying random shit, just for the sake of buy random shit. 

Apartment hunting. 

Eating delicious cooking by my sister and mom <3!

Watching the Food network, Sex and the City and TLC.

Watching Misfits and the Republic of Boyle (online).

Going to the movies. 

Attending poetry slams. 

Sleeping (little).

Job hunting. 

Writing blog posts. 

Being broke. 

Messaging the same going on Okcupid, despite the fact he lives in washington and there is no foreseeable future. 

Wow! I sound busy, that's cool. I like to seem busy, even though I'm feeling pretty lame. I had such a shit day at work I just felt like cry for the first half hour of my shift. I got there and immediately got a headache, not cool, then I started to think about how Ariana and I will never work together again, or hang out almost every morning at school. :'(. That's when I almost cried. I hate losing amazing friends. I know it's stupid, and I know I'll see her again, probably soon. I mean my sister and I are already planning to head to Van for see the Surrealist art show, hello, as if we could miss that!!! 

Yeah, just been a gloomy day. I want something or someone to do, badly. Summer can be sooooo boring. Some days are amazing. I had an amazing weekend with some awesome people, mainly one of my BFF's Kayla, but it was also stressful. I went and looked at an apartment with my friend and it was sooo tiny and uncomfortable. I don't want to tell her, but I cannot live with her. I know this for sure now. I don't even want to be friends with her right now, she irritates me to much and at the same time I love her to death. I can just see that combination being dangerous. Anyway as you can see from that list I have been truly busy, truly! I will write that list about shit to do in Victoria soon! I promise it's coming!!! 

That's really all I've got for now, the list above (just to clarify) isn't a happy things list, it's just a list of what I've been doing. Trust me, working would not make it onto my happy things list. Peace and good night ya'll. 

Wednesday, May 25, 2011

I know I'm lame, but I'm exhausted.

I feel bad for neglecting to post anything interesting, but I swear I've just been really busy and shit! I have many amazing people who I want to to spend time with and it's hard to balance sometimes. There are also many awesome things happening that I want to go to! There's Uno fest on, an open mike night at Cabin 12 tomorrow and Rooftop is open which I am definitely planning on hitting up one Sunday, but I have to wait till I'm off because the lines usually suck. I also really want to go see Thor and a couple of other movies...

So much to do!!!

One weekend I'm planning on following the chick at mosiac's weekend update to a T, just because her posts always make me laugh so hard. I wish I was that cool... :S

Another reason I've been busy is because two of my best friends from school and a good friend from work, are leaving soon. Three friends in one month is not cool! :(

My bestfriend Raya is going to Thailand for a month and I'm super sad I don't have her to bug and ask for advice. I know I'll keep myself busy and whatnot with all the other awesome people in my life, but she is that one person (right now) that understands me the best, plus she likes the same books as me AND laughs at my crappy jokes :D.

On saying that I just want to mention that I'm really happy how close I am with my to high school BFF's Sam and Kay, things were a little rocky for a bit there, but things have evened out and I feel happier with those relationships than ever! <3 :D

My friend Ariana is moving. I am VERY sad about this. I love this girl soooo much! Like times a billion (sorry I sound like an obnoxious teenaged girl but my affection no's no bounds!). We've had a good run. I met her at Winner's and we became friends instantly because of a common love of books. I seriously don't know what I would do without her. She has got me through some rough times at school and in life. She also gives great advice. I've already threatened several times to kidnap her... :P Anyway I'm just sad this is happening sooner than we both expected because her dad got a new job in Vancouver, so she's moving now instead of January. Sucks so bad.

The last person who is leaving my life is my friend Kaylee from work. This girl is awesome too. She has a great sense of humour and we have the coolest movie nights! :D Last time she made me Korean food. I'm gonna miss her so bad! I also love her dog, Obie (Obe?). I got to house sit for  her family last summer and it was so amazing staying with such an awesome animal, I'm not a dog person, but I seriously fell in love with Obe. I'll never for get Obe or Kaylee! <3

Okay those are some shout outs to my friends. I don't really have much else to say right now. I'm basically just stressed and tired, as usual. I'm gonna just relax with my mom and sister tomorrow so hopefully that helps me de-stress a little. I will probably write a 'fun' post of some sort for you guys tomorrow... probs another list of something... I'm thinking cool summer locations in and around Victoria... dunno though some of my readers might feel that's unfair as they don't live in Victoria. Anyway let me know what you think! <3

List time!


Pina Colada's
class postings

the end of the night



sun burns


thai food

sticky rice

Udon noodle soup 


Thursday, May 19, 2011


I must stop making excuses about everything, mostly about my life. I'm getting tired of waiting for things to happen. Somethings I want I know I have to wait on, like getting a motorcycle or publishing a novel. I'll get there, it'll just take a little more time, money and work. I'm down with that, I just get impatient. Yet, there are other things which I must stop putting off, like performing at tomorrow nights poetry slam. My little sister keeps harassing me about and I keeping saying I don't have anything ready, I'm scared and I'm not good enough. I want to silence this voice! I am so sick of myself. Of course I can do it, I already know that, I can do anything I want or need to do. My life, so far, has taught me that I am capable of far more than I give myself credit for, that's why I push myself. I'm also incredibly lazy. I put everything off to the last minute and only do things I don't like half-heartedly.

Another thing I've been sort of putting off is moving out. I want to. I don't like living at home any more it's boring. Three of my bestfriends have already moved out and I'm really jealous. Today, a really close friend asked me if I wanted to move out with her, so I said maybe. I'm gonna have to save more money, spend less, work more, dance less, I'll have to learn to cook, good thing I can already clean. Luckily I already know everything there is to know about this friend... you could say we're like sisters. Actually it has been said. Anyway there has always been some reason for not moving out, money, and school mostly. I've had it though, I'm just gonna tell her yes, beg my dad for money and do it. I don't want to be here any more. If we can get a cheap place I'll get my dad  to cover rent and I'll be able to afford it. I hate this idea more than I'm willing to admit to anyone again. I mean the not paying for rent thing, but it's the only way I can see to do this. I'm also gonna have to up my credit limit :S. I guess that credit card is never getting paid off. Kids, if your reading this, please avoid credit cards! Bad news I tell you! Mr. Visa is not your friend.

Anyway I know I promised better updates for this week, but I've been working a lot and I'm tired. I meant to go to bed ages ago :S. I promise I'll have something cooler for you tomorrow or Friday! Promise! Night lovelies. 

Sunday, May 15, 2011

The Bent Mast, a brief restaruant review

The Bent Mast review

The Bent Mast is a cute little pub inside an awesome, large Victorian house in James Bay. My best friend and I recently went there for dinner.

The pub was a charming house, but the interior was bland. It appeared they used the layered sponge painting technique on the walls, something that was only briefly popular in the mid 90s. The rest of the decor consisted of LED christmas lights hung in various parts of the room in an attempt to cheer up the dimly lighted, dull room. They didn't work, personally, I think LED lights are on of the ugliest things ever invented. The table placement was also strange, in order to save space they had pushed some of the tables into the corner so you had to sit staring at the wall. For someone who spends 90% of her time people watching this is not ideal. Although the tables and chairs were cute wooden ones, very comfy. There were other tables but they were larger. The bathroom was another issue, it was all the way up stairs and down a hall. It was very neat and clean otherwise, but just in a strange location.

The food was decent. I got the buffalo chicken kaiser and my friend got a beef burger of some kind. My was more sour tasting, than spicy and I wasn't expecting the chicken to be breaded or in strips, which just made it harder to eat. It would have made more sense to just have a burger and less messy to eat too. One thing that I can't complain about was the yam fries. They were perfectly crispy on the outside and soft on the inside, and they had just the right amount of seasoning. The chipotle dip didn't come with the meal and fries, but came with the appetiser which I didn't think made sense, because who wants yam fries without dip? We order the dip anyway and it was good too, also a little less spicy than I expected, but maybe that was just wishful thinking.

The staff was helpful, but not excellent our waiter brought us two menus, which were identical, but failed to tell us why. He also looked forgot one of the specials, otherwise he was attentive and friendly. Although I have to say I'd rather we'd had the cute bartender/server attending us ;). 

I didn't take any pictures of the food because I didn't think of it at the time, but next time I do this the post will definitely be accompanied by pictures! Anyway hopefully you enjoyed this, even if your not from my city. I'd say this place is worth checking out, if just for the cute house and a couple of beers, not so much for the cuisine though. I'll rate it 6/10. 

Hopefully I'll something a little more fun/interesting/entertaining for you in the next couple of days. Possibly another list! 

Wednesday, May 11, 2011

Water for Elephants, a brief review

My subtitle thingy on here says that I review stuff, but I haven't really reviewed anything so far, so I felt that it was time I started.

Warning, there may be spoilers below so please don't continue reading if you want to see the movie with out having it ruined!

As the title suggests I'll be reviewing Water for Elephant's which is based on a novel by Sara Gruen. I was actually surprised how good this movie was, despite having Robert Pattinson in it and looking a little cheesy/fairy-tale-esque, but I like my happy endings. Anyway this movie was surprisingly gritty, it showed guys getting pushed off trains, horses being shot and other animal and human abuse. I was expecting it to be a little more fairy tale, even though the trail does prepare you for some of those things, I was still fascinated. 

There were a few really bad, cliche lines which I hated, mostly spoken by Robert Pattinson's character. I kinda have a crush on him, wanna have his babies, etc, but the guy STILL can't act, which was disappointed. Every scene including him simply showed a close of his expressionless, or near expressionless face. Awesome. The character I did love was the evil husband (of Jacob's love interest) and circus owner(?) August played by Christoph Waltz. His character really capture what you'd expect an abusive person to be like. He managed to capture being scary, entertaining and human in one scene. Reese Witherspoon wasn't bad, but I've seen her do better, I still really liked her character, but again I felt like the movie had to many close ups of her face. It was definitely using the attractiveness of the two stars to draw people in.

I also found the movie a little slow in some places, but overall I felt that it worked because of the historical setting (the great depression). It also had an element of predicability, which I find boooorrrrowing. This a problem for me since I find most movies predicable. Usually you can guess how a movie will go down once you've seen one movie in the genre, this was no exception. I really did like the circus portrayal though, it captured the magic of going to the circus, and the dark reality of having a cold-hearted boss. Overall I'd give this movie a 7/10. I wouldn't see it again in theatres, but I might rent it. I also definitely need to get my hands on the book since I just found out the author wrote it during National Novel Writing Month, something I have participated in twice now and is super fun! 

Tuesday, May 10, 2011

Tumblr addiction and photography.

I'm totally in love with tumblr! It has so many awesome, fun, colourful, thoughtful pictures, I can't get enough of it. I go on there for hours sometimes, just look at pictures and getting inspired. I love photography in general, but seeing the different sorts of amazing pictures and art people post makes me want to get a fancy camera and take as many pictures as I can! So I will.

New hobby in the makes everyone: photography. I am hopefully gonna be able to buy a canon rebel or something like that from a girl at work for a good deal, hopefully. If she hasn't sold it! :S
Then I can take some actually awesome looking shots and post them! I'm so excited! I also need models to practice shooting people. Hopefully some friends will volunteer, I'm looking for both girls and guys.

Back to tumblr. Since I brought it up I feel like I should post some of my favourite tumblr-er's(?). Many way here are some that consistently post or repost awesome stuff! Mostly fashion photography, but some landscapes etc thrown in. very awesome pictures and fashion pictures, love it! cool photography and photographer! awesome fashion blog, love this one very inspiring! collection of quirky photos, lots of landscapes and found objects. A girl who takes a photo of her outfit every day! So cute. She has a website too, but I just like to see the outfit so I just follow the tumblr instead. Postcards from the former Soviet Union (Russia). I have a strange obsession with Soviet Russia and Stalin so I love these, plus they are quirky and pretty (sometimes) or they have interesting/ridiculous propaganda, always fun. Fashion blog that goes to the designer and post pictures of them or their collections, very cool and awesome photography! Bookshelves for those bibliophiles, like me, out there :). More landscape pics and some fashion pics. Usually aged looking or faded, but soooo gorgeous! Pics of cute, girly stuff, mostly fashion, lots of make-up and jewelry though, very cute! Pictures of Ballerina's at different New York landmarks. I LOVE ballet, as I took dance for 9 years when I was a child so these are really special to me. I've never been to New York, but it seems like an awesome city. I'd love to visit it.

Okay well that is all! I was attempting to find one more blog for you guys to check out, but alas I can't remember the name and I couldn't find it in my dashboard so you'll have to do without it. Also I have a tumblr which I sometimes use, and you can check that out here