Thursday, June 14, 2012

Writing brain function: Normal.

My writers block seems to be gone!
I've been making up stories about every second person I see and even writing some of them... in a very lazy fashion, but nonetheless it seems I want to write again because for awhile there I almost felt like not writing at all. It was a terrible moment for me. I questioned whether I even wanted to bother any more then started crying and had a little mental panic attack which suggests it is quite possibly rather important to me that I continue... rather.

I've also decided I don't care how good a writer I am. I just give up. I'm never going to be as good as I want to be. I'm never going to write perfectly. The only thing I can do is continue writing and improving cause it makes me happy and it's like my fucking therapy.

I'd also like to state that these blog posts (and anything I post on tumblr) DO NOT COUNT! These are effortless (usually) and just for fun I suppose (most of the time) I don't really count them as 'serious' writing. Serious writing is sitting down and taking a lot of time and effort to create some kind of perfection. Basically you torture yourself a lot (and this is what I love?).

Anyway. I actually edited a story I've been working on for like, a year or so which made me feel better and I have another one I want to start, so yay!
It's also nice to have my brain back in this place where I feel inspired all the time (that sounds cheesy, it totally is). It's nice. It makes life sooooo much less dull and more bearable. Not that it was really dreadful before, but I'm happier here. So much happier.

Okay. That is all. 

Friday, June 08, 2012

Some things I've learned (or almost learned)

No matter how much good advice you give to your friends for or against something they are never going to fully listen and will always go with what they want.

Negative thoughts and actions DO effect how you think and feel about yourself. They are unhealthy and should be crushed.

No matter what, even if I stop writing for months, the writer in me can never die.

Friends come and go, but there will be a few that you truly love like family and will never leave you no matter how far apart you grow.

Lust or infatuation is never a good biases for a relationship, but it's still necessary to a small degree.

Everybody (including the absolute worst of us) is a human just like you. Unless they are aliens dressed up as humans and trying to run the UK. Then they are those instead.

Making yourself happy should come first or else you won't be able to please anyone else. Self denial may be necessary for longer term happiness.

Nobody has a right to tell you how to dress, what to like or who to like. Ignore anyone that tries. (although they will try and you will listen and possibly be swayed from time to time, but ultimately it'll always be in your power to choose what you want to).

Nobody can ever tell you what to do with your body or how you should feel about it or whether it's awesome or not. If they try, crush them.

Being a door mat is never fun, or sexy, or interesting or healthy.

Gender roles are completely constructed. Ignore them.

Never ever let society pressure you into having sex or your friends or a partner. Especially when you aren't ready or really don't want to. It's a terrible feeling.

Empathy and sympathy are not the same thing. Both should be used with caution, but not ignored. They are sometimes necessary.

Don't judge or hate strangers when you don't know their story.

Don't hate on rude people because they can't behave respectfully. Just be as fucking nice and cheerful as possible to put them at shame for their unseemly behaviour.

Don't think you can't do something because it becomes true and tortures you.

Okay, so maybe some of these I'm still working on. But I've got the ideas in my head and I'm working on them all! I swear. Also some of these are still really recent... so maybe even a few months ago I didn't think quite like this... I don't really know.