Sunday, May 27, 2012

Working on me.

Okay so I probably watched one too many Sex + videos, but now I can't get ideas about sex, body positivity, feminism and friendship outta my head.

Also standing up for myself.

I need to lay it all out. Here. On my blog.

So I'll start from where my own train of thought began:

I had this realization that I really like it when people touch my waist area. Now, I know y'all is like, so what Terri, I'm sure lots of people enjoy that, but let me finish guys! In general, I think I just like waists and waist touching (that almost sounds dirty, but I don't mean it like that!) because I think that inherently I've got an obsession with them because my own isn't perfect. Not my waist to be clear, but my stomach area, in appearance. I honestly didn't understand why I had a scar when I was a kid and I hated when other kids asked me about it because I found it confusing, like, why the fuck are they so fascinated by this thing? It's always been there. I mean I'm fascinated with it, but I'm fascinated with my entire fucking body, so like, da fuck is wrong with them? As I've grown older I've realized people find scars really unattractive or interesting and they must know how you got it (cause who doesn't like a cool story, right?).

I have a really close friend who pointed out to me one day that my scar is kinda unattractive. At the time I just agreed with her and now I'm like WHAT THE FUCK WAS I THINKING? I love my scar. I think it looks really neat. I mean, nobody else in the entire world has a stomach that appears as awesome as mine does. Like, sorry guys. So I'ma stop hiding it under those lose shirts I like to wear and not be afraid of a tiny dress (cause I have been and that's silly). Also to the friend that made me feel rotten about it, well fuck you cause I don't and I don't care how 'unattractive' anyone finds it I will flaunt it till the end of the fucking earth.
Done. I feel better now.

I was gonna write a bunch of other stuff about sex, but I'm honestly too lazy and tired to edit and research it like I should so that'll be a different post. Sorry lovelies. Have a good night! :) 

Saturday, May 12, 2012

Post school writers block

So apparently I've been suffering from some post-school writers block or something cause (as is always the intention) I have not been writing at least every other day... only some days, when I'm not being lazy and I have even been writing anything worthwhile, which seems to happen with me a lot. I need to get on writing some worthy articles, stories or poetry goddamn! Tonight was especially bad because I was browsing around the web and found this chick  whose poetry and writing style I really enjoy and I got excited and was yeah! I'm get on that writing thing and write some new poetry! Yeah!

I honestly have been the worst with poetry lately (actually for the last year or so, but there's not much to say there). I think I mentally decided at some point that all my poetry is terrible and I shouldn't bother with it. Which is not actually true. I have written terrible poetry, but I've also written some okay and close-to-good poetry (or at least people seem to sort of like it! which is cool) so I shouldn't sell myself short so much. I'm really tired of selling myself short actually. I do it too much and I've had enough. I'm stop it. I'm own it.  I'm also gonna try actually writing some new poetry cause like half the stuff I've posted recently (on my tumblr blog) has been old stuff that I've just like edited or reworked from other poems that I didn't like. I need something that is actually new. I also think my last English class ought to be a poetry class. I think I chose something else, but registration is still like month(s) away so I can change all that!

Yeah, poetry writing is happening right now.
Be proud of me lovelies. Be proud. I'ma try and finish at least one poem, then sleeeeeeeeeeeep. 

Wednesday, May 02, 2012

How to date me, or get with me or whatevs.

Okay, I just decided I've been single for TOO LONG. Two years is too long and considering it wasn't even long term or particularly scarring relationship this is getting silly.

LET'S BE HONEST HERE. I actually just need an excuse to write this list, cause I'm bored and this shit amuses me.

So here are somethings guys who want to date me should do! :) (if there are actually some, cause I haven't been able to find them).
Maybe this'll help someone out... or maybe I'm asking too much, but I gave up so y'all gotta try harder. Plus it's amusing for me. :P

1. Feed me. This never fails. I'm like a fucking cat or something, give me free food or candy and I'll just keep coming back.

2. Make an effort to look nice, because I'm making an effort to look nice too.

3. Ask me to hang out. It's fun to do things, you know, like out of the house... in the park... at the beach, whatevs.

4. You probably should also TELL ME if you like me or else confusion will ensue.

5. Let's be friends! Because It's always nice to be friends with someone you're (eventually) gonna sleep with (maybe).

6. Make an effort to contact meeeee. I like it. I will contact you, IF you contact me too.

7. Let me meet your friends. Cause if you want me in your life you actually want me in your entire life.

8. Gifts and charm always work. I am very susceptible to these, but I pretend I'm not so don't be fooled.

9. You should probably kiss me that some point. I like kissing quite a lot (as in very much).

10. It is completely unnecessary and a little weird if you like everything I like. I mean really weird. I never understood this.

11. Don't be afraid to argue or disagree a little. Cause it's fun n'shit.

12. Smile and laugh, don't be afraid to joke around. I don't take stuff to seriously.

13. Tease me.

14. Be interesting. Please. I hate boring. I hate being bored. I lose patience quick and lose interest.

15. Don't give up on meeee, but don't be a pushy jerk either, cause that's never classy. Some times (all the time) I'm a little slow to make up my mind.

16. Errr this seems really obvious, but you could just ask me out. That seems like it's effective for other people... usually.

I really think I need to actually put in effort toooo. I just hate dating though. Especially online dating those guys only ever want to sleep with me, so uninteresting.
Oh and please don't take this too seriously, it isn't proven in effectiveness or anything... but chances are if you at least try you could have a shot right?
I don't even know why I'm writing this nobody who'll read it even cares. Expect it might be funny. Maybe. I'm starting to get loopy again. BEDTIME NIGHT INTERWEBZ.

Actually fuck all these.

1. Feed me.
2. Make me laugh
3. And don't be gross.

You're good to go!